ItalyXReader-Cant Seem to Let Go-

ItalyXReader-Can't seem to let go-
Its been about 3 months since you and your Italian lover broke ties, and in that time you seemed pretty happy after the first few weeks. But you tried to go out and find another guy. When you did memories of you and Italy still flashed in your head, you thought you were over him but you weren't. Cause of this you had to break up with your current Boyfriend cause of the memories of Felli you were having of being with him. You lie in your bed and think deeply about you and Italy, you both just seemed so happy together it was so UN-real.

You wanted to feel his soft loving skin against yours, those ever so strong but soft hands on your hands, and the most things you missed was the kisses. Feeling his soft lips touch yours felt so right, so everything. You and he haven't spoken since the breakup, just talking to him made your heart break even more. It even almost brought you to tears at times. "I can't hold it in anymore" you  say to yourself softly, your hand reaches your phone on the bed side and you open the 'Contacts' Menu, hesitating to click the call button on 'Felli' "If you don't say anything now it won't get better"

you take a deep breath and hit the 'Send' Button. 'ring, ring, ring' "Ciao?" you hear a Italian voice over the phone and you froze for a sec but then spoke "Felli, it's me <Name>" you heard silence over the phone, then he softly speaks back "oh, what a do you want <Name>?" you bite your lip trying to contain your feelings "FelIi know this won't fix anything between us but" you pause " I've been having dreams about you, to many times its breaking my heart" Italy stayed silent over the phone "I'm always thinking about you at the worst times to, I went out with a couple of guys but"

you hear Felli say softly "Bella…" "The memories of you and me kept getting in the way!" you say about to break into tears "I know telling you this won't fix anything between us, but I had to too get it off my chest, I still love you Felli. I just wish you loved me back" All you hear is soft breathing over the phone then he speaks back "Bella, I wish I could say a the same, but I haven't had any of that"

He hears you starting to break down "I know Felli, I just don't think I will find anyone who was as perfect as you" he says ever so calmly to you "you will bella, I promise, you just got to a have patients" you shake your head "But I don't know how to stop thinking about you, and having dreams." Italy frowns slightly "Just think about those hot Hetalia guys <Name>" that made you crack a smile

"well they are better than guys in the real world" he slightly smiles at the feeling of you being a bit happy "Sorry if I bothered you" he shakes his head "No, it's okay but I need to get back to my school work" you nod your head "yha, okay. Well then bye" you say with sadness in your voice. "Ciao" after you both hang up you curl up and cry in your bed experiencing the breakup all over again.